Im not the girl your mom warned you about, her imagination was never this good.
On the Go
Wednesday, December 17, 2014, 4:44 PM
Some Tips for Girls in rock concerts
Tip 1: Never stoop lower than your chest level
+ you might never get up! It is interesting how in rock concerts, when the music starts playing, there is no assurance that there will be reasonable behavior. Stepping, mosh pits, EVERYthing you think can happen might. Goodness i remember my first My Chemical Romance concert where an annoying man crowd surf onto my head. I was 14 years old. Imagine as a 14 year old teenager girl holding a grown man on her head. Thankfully a friend of mine pulled him to the ground and made him crash so hard for tugging my hair just to stay balanced on my head. Leading me to tip 2..
Tip 2: Dress appropriately
+ You think you spandex pants might reflect respect for your space? Take those to a clubbing place and you might get a dance or two. In a rock concert.. make sure you dress comfortably enough to protect yourself. Leave your heels at home. By that i mean Covered shoes, jeans and clothes u can elbow with. Not to get into a fight, but to defend urself in case you end up being the outline of a mosh pit! I remember being right in front enjoying Silverstein's concert and suddenly a sharp pain peirced my skin. People pushing at the back can actually cause the sharp stablizers on the fences to stickout!
Tip 3: Never let your guard down.
+ If you think keeping your guard in a club is tough, lets remember in a rock concert, everyone becomes engrossed in the music and all is ignored. This means elbows hitting your head as they wave in the air, HP dropping on the floor when people push u from the back, or i remember once in a Crossfaith concert, i got punched by a female because she was dancing. OUCH ! Also the Anberlin final concert i went for was so amazing i decided to try the mosh pit. I assumed 7 years of occasional concerts would be sufficient experience to survive a mosh pit. Well. The guys dont give a shit that i have boobs. They punch just the same. So just a precaution. Be prepared.
Overall, Heavy concerts are dangerous but thats the thrill of it. Go with trustable friends and make sure you watch out for one another. I guess all is still fun and worth it(: I never regretted experiencing these. In fact getting exposure to chaos from 14 made me realise how surviving clubbing is just childs play.
The different homes
Hall 15 was a whole year of living with a stranger. Thankfully it wasnt an unreasonable room mate. Different level of cleanliness was hard since im pretty allergic to dust. But otherwise we had a mini boundery where we respected our diff characters. Jam band in hall was amazing. The talent in my cohort required an intensive audition in which so many applicants were not eventually in the club. Frankly, singing for hall is so rewarding. 2 performances, nights out, feeling happy surrounded by NIE friends, and a blink of an eye, a year was completed.
And then came a new year without getting hall since i cluelessly applied for all the wrong halls. Travelling is an issue when u actually know there are various options available to substitute the castrophobic experience and the occasional stranger exhale on trains during Singapore's famous peak period. I ended in the Jian Yu Hostel at Sheng Shiong which frankly was such a good experience. Privacy and security is really top notch though i cant say the same about the quality of facilities and amenties. Yes i share the apartment with a phillipino and its like a whole apartment space! Amazing value for the money if we talk about space. But the things have not been well taken care for my visual enjoyment. The fun of telling people i live in Shengshiong was pretty thrilling. Jokes about having cabbages as neighbours made my friends look out for me each time their bus pass my bus stop.
Now, as a current resident of Pioneer hall, i feel so thankful. The first hand facilities are terribly spoiling me. The gym is so much better than mini condo gyms. The small cozy room might not be perfect for castrophobic students but for me, it just equates to lesser space to clean and tidy. Throw in my favourite Muji Diffuser and i thus enjoy the comforts of a second home.
Maybe its a crazy blessing to tried living in so many hostels. Maybe its like living abroad. Maybe what a second home needs is privacy and serenity to support a haven for the residents. I do appreciate all my lil homes. They taught me so much(:
Thursday, December 11, 2014, 12:01 PM
Behind the Lens
I know you care
Is it that my heart is weak,
Does it seem that i'm attracted to people I meet
Is it wrong to be attracted
Not by looks but by your behavior
Is it wrong to be happy?
What are you thinking when you took these shots?
Perhaps we get weird when we get sad
Maybe all this thinking is wrong.
There comes a time when my heart is so persistent despite its cheeky urges to not adhere.
There comes a time I wake up feeling guilty because I wish I could understand what I need and want clearly.
Monday, October 20, 2014, 10:15 PMHalloween
The mind is a powerful tool
Often it made me feel like a fool
Protective actions seem like touches
Arousing words pleasing like hot flushes
You left me pushed to a corner
smothered by just one word
Hardening my gaze
Then there is you
protecting me from harm
quietly, you watch the scenes
together so intensely
I feel your gaze stripping me off my guard
Your wit putting thoughts into my head
Looking up at your domination makes me weak
Then again you are not whats complete.
Thursday, September 18, 2014, 7:52 PMToday marks the day where i begin something new.
Humans are like animals to remain sane. Truth is, the is a parallel that can be drawn between the way that animals behave and the way that we should behave.
Animal instincts teaches you to think for yourself. A dog doesn't try to please you unless you have achieved its loyalty. Animals merely look to the benefits that the other person can provide and then suck up to them by doing tricks.
Today, I learnt to stop pleasing others. Personally because it affects the way I think and eventually this mindset of mine develops to my full character. Basically, If you are pleasing others all the time to gain a certain acceptance, each pleasing instance requires a lot of work. You have to empathise and put yourself in the other's POV before committing to what should be said. During this moment, you are losing a part of yourself and trying to fit yourself into their feelings and thoughts. So Wendy, stop fitting yourself to everyone's Procrustean bed. You can never be yourself if the moments in your lives are made to think like others. Truth is, you are 100% Wendilicious. Be Proud and Confident with what you say and who you are.
Look back for a second. I have developed these thoughts, on me own. I feel like I just hopped up to a helicopter and looked at my life from a bird eye's view. Indeed. I have trust issues because I grew up wanting my brother to accept me and to treat me like his best friend. So, I viewed things from his perspective. Took up all his interest and started treating strangers I meet as naked fuckables. Eventually, it becomes a habit. Looking back, I never wanted this.
We all set up with the most noble intentions but my dear self, this is an ultimatum to choose the world or yourself. Accept everyone but be proud of yourself. Nothing to prove, nothing to lose, nothing to hide.
Sunday, October 06, 2013, 4:43 PM
Its been drilling.
3Weeks and ive done so much:)
Night cycle TWICE
Club hop once
Okay doesnt seem like plenty.
Maybe im jus quite boring normally HAA
Friday, October 04, 2013, 2:21 PM
I feel like i dont care for this spot enough.. well so much has changed and i cldnt record it. So i might as well do it now:) UNI has been amazing.
I did so much that ill never expect to:)
Pictures talk for me:)
Time flies. Make it count.
Memories. Thank God.