Wendilicious
Moi
Teach. Sing. Write. Fly. Dive. Rave.
I'm not the girl your mom warned you about, her imagination was never this good.
Work for pasta and ice cream and also makes pasta and ice cream work for me.
Ecoutez
More of me
7/16/10, 12:02 AM
I KNOW HE WUN SEE THIS.. SO I CAN SAY I FEEL HORRIBLE.LIKE I COME HOME AND I NOE I HAD AN AWESOME DAY
AND I START MISSING BEING WITH YOU.
AND I FEEL DAMN FUCKED UP KNOWING I CANT GO BACK EVEN THOUGH YOU WANT ME TO BECAUSE MY MIND SAYS WENDY YOU DUNNO WHAT YOU WANT.
AND SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE ... SHIT.
AND I FEEL LIKE THINKING OF UNICORNS BUT ALL THAT APPEARS IS THIS DAMN SHIT BLACK SPACE KNOWING I FEEL ALONE EVEN WHEN IM NOT.
WHAT IF ILL NEVER KNOW WHAT I WANT. WHAT IF I KNOW ILL WAKE UP EVERYDAY CRYING AND REGRETTING EVERY CHOICE I MADE IN THE PAST. WHAT IF ONE DAY I CANT KEEP SMILING AT OTHERS ANYMORE. WHAT IF I CAN NEVER FEEL IT SINCE I FEEL THE SAME FOR ALL. WHAT IF I NEVER FIND OUT HOW MUCH AND WHO IS THE RIGHT ONE BECAUSE I JUST FUCKING CARE TOO MUCH FOR EVERY PERSON AROUND ME. WHAT IF I NEVER KNOW.. WHAT IF EVERYTHING REMAINS STILL RIGHT NOW. WHAT IF I STOP EATING CHOCOLATES AND CRYING. WHAT IF EVERYONE AROUND ME STARTS BEING THEMSELVES. WHAT IF ONE DAY I CANNOT TAKE THE RUBBISH AND BURST. WHAT IF ONE DAY I CANT SMILE AGAIN. WHAT IF I WAKE UP AND STOP LIKING MYSELF. WHAT IF EVERYDAY I FEEL TEMPTED TO SAY YES TO HIM BUT I HANG ON STRONG SO I WUN HURT THE WOUND AGAIN. WHAT IF TOMORROW I CRY. WHAT IF I CANT HANDLE ALL THATS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE. WHAT IF ... I CANT FEEL SPECIAL ANYMORE.
all i want for christmas this year is to find what and who makes me happy
and to grow emotionally stronger.
I NEED A SIGN. A TOUCH. A FEELING. THAT SAYS.
THATS THE ONE.]
before i say yes. to anything anymore.
cause im not risking hurting ANYONE.