Wendilicious
Moi
Teach. Sing. Write. Fly. Dive. Rave.
I'm not the girl your mom warned you about, her imagination was never this good.
Work for pasta and ice cream and also makes pasta and ice cream work for me.
Ecoutez
More of me
7/29/10, 7:37 PM
JUST REALISED TODAY THAT..THERE ARE SOOO MANY PROBS IN THE WORLD..WHEN ONE ENDS.. ANOTHER BEGINS....
SO I USE TO KEEP WISHING FOR A BETTER TOMORROW.
DON'T WE ALL WISHH.. THAT WE CAN HAVE A SMOOTH SAILING STREAM IN OUR LIVES(:
THEN AGAIN IF WE DID... WE WUN KNOW WHATS AWESOME AND WHATS NOT...
CAUSE THERE WILL BE NO COMPARISON...
LIKE.....
EATING PLAIN BISCUITS.
IF YOU JUST EAT PLAIN BISCUITS THEN YOU'LL FIND IT JUST ALRIGHT... LIKE NO PREFERENCE CAUSE YOU CANT HAVE A COMPARISON
BUT IF YOU EAT CHOCOLATES AND PLAIN BISCUITS.... YOU'LL SEE THE AWESOMENESS IN THE CHOCOLATE....
OKAAAAAY I NOE IM FAMOUS FOR COMING UP WITH BAD EXAMPLES... BUT...
IF YOU GET IT... ITS AWESOME OKAY(:
AND THOUGH I FEEL SUCKY AT POINTS OF THE DAY.
THERE ARE TIMES I FEEL HAPPY LIKE TODAY...
LIKE HONESTLY SINCE POLY STARTED...
I CANT REALLY BE COMPLETELY MYSELF... NOT THAT IM NOW A DOLL AND ALL...
ILL NEVER BE... THANKFULLY(:
BUT I CANT....
like be free to think and do things i wanna do
like scream names at corridors... act stupid to make people laugh
fall flat on my face without being judged.... running to places with food and screaming... making friends with toilet aunties... feel the sincerity in people and trust everyone around me...
i miss doing those stuff(:
DUH I MISS MY PRI/SEC FRIENDS LIKE SHIT PIE ASS BANANA CAKE...
BUT... I GUESS I JUST HAVE TO ACCEPT IT.
EMBRACE IT(;
AND FACE WHATEVER NOW(: CAUSE I BELIEVE GOOD KARMA! (:
and yes there are some sweet people ive met that made me feel a lil more at home in the past couple of weeks(: maybe im just in the wrong course! haha(:
thank god for them!(:
AND FOR EVERYONE...
AT POINTS IN YOUR LIFE YOU FEEL LIKE SHIT.
LIKE YOU LOST SOMETHING INSIDE... OR YOU GET THIS SENSE OF LONELINESS...
A LOSS IN WHAT YOU WANT. MAYBE ... CONFUSED.
REMEMBER... WENDY SAYS......
WHEN YOU MAKE IT THROUGH THE NIGHT ILL SEE THE SUN.
(:
7/26/10, 10:41 PM
hold on when you feel like letting go...And this time I think you'll know
You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
its like seeing your children all grown up
that smile. i see. is relieve and even though you never say it to me
after so many years of trying to make you proud, facing the pain..
its okay
i know deep down that you love me and you are proud of me.
i love my daddy cause even though i know we had a bad past and how much i hated him in the past. its about forgiving not forgetting.
everytime i see him smile
i know its real. and.
it makes me all fluffy.
one day ill make you proud
ill try and try
and be the best i can
not physically or academically im just not cut out for that
but emotionally.
ill try.
if i hit 47 and nothing comes out
ill still try
to make you proud.
and you know what, i can feel it.
17 years. and i know you are proud of me.
even if you dun say.
i just know(:
i just believe(:
by being your best baby girl
at heart
(:
10:34 PM
something got me thinking todaywhat is the purpose of our lives.
well... i have found mine.
its tough sometimes ...
making choices.
when we are so afraid of failing that sometimes we fail to see that failure comes with a gift.
not a price. a gift.
and that with every step we take...
we choose what we see.
its not about regretting the past.. feeling sorry for oneself.
but embracing what has happened and the future.
now if only one day ill see what true love is
cause if birds can fly over the rainbow
why then oh why cant i.
time will tell
TIME.
7/22/10, 9:19 PM
Imagine there's no countries It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one
7/20/10, 11:18 PM
i love my mummy (;
she stays when the whole world walks out.
and
she
make
me
understand
love a wee bit better (:
thankyou dear lord, or whoever is above blessing me (:
(:
thank you mummy.
cause i know those wrinkles were for worries of our family
cause i know every smile is a sign of reality and comfort
cause i know your thummy is a sign of my birth
cause i know that EVERY SECOND with you.....
its love.
.. you will always be the most beautiful mummy in the world.
even if the whole world says no....
i know ill kick their asses and love you dearly (:
mummy .
10:05 PM
i was telling myself today.Wendy if you start fumbling and losing yourself ill box your face (:
threatening yourself can be funny sometimes
.
.
.
if you become a bitch ill make you eat celerys for the rest of your life
if you dun believe in unicorns miracles and fairytales YOU MUST! (:
if you change to a different wendy you'll never eat chocolates for the rest of your life
i did so many threatening stuff but its seems to work (:
everyone should try threatening themselves.
Wendy if you start fumbling and losing yourself ill box your face (:
i hate looking strong when i am weak (:
but i hate feeling weak even more
sometimes its about decieving yourself that you are strong (:
i dun wanna be an aimless girl so freaking bad (:
10:55 AM
next time when you feel like the saddest person on earth.
at least you know what you want.
cause wendy doesnt =(
do you love me because im beautiful or am i beautiful because you love me?
do you love me for who i am or is it who i am that you love me for? (:
wow . THINKING WENDY! (:
Cause im Mr Brightside
10:04 AM
I REALISED THAT WEEKS HAVE GONE BY SO VERY FAST.THEN AGAIN WHAT IVE BEEN SEEING.....
REPETITIVE. SUPERFICIAL. MOST OF THE TIME
YEA. I STILL MISS SECONDARY SCHOOL (:
IT WAS ALL, REAL.
(:
wendy yes no yes no? (:
POSI-TEEEEEEETH! (:
cause when you make it through the night you'll see the sun (:
你哭著對我說
You told me as you cried
童話裡都是騙人的
That everything in fairy tales are all lies
7/16/10, 12:02 AM
I KNOW HE WUN SEE THIS.. SO I CAN SAY I FEEL HORRIBLE.LIKE I COME HOME AND I NOE I HAD AN AWESOME DAY
AND I START MISSING BEING WITH YOU.
AND I FEEL DAMN FUCKED UP KNOWING I CANT GO BACK EVEN THOUGH YOU WANT ME TO BECAUSE MY MIND SAYS WENDY YOU DUNNO WHAT YOU WANT.
AND SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE ... SHIT.
AND I FEEL LIKE THINKING OF UNICORNS BUT ALL THAT APPEARS IS THIS DAMN SHIT BLACK SPACE KNOWING I FEEL ALONE EVEN WHEN IM NOT.
WHAT IF ILL NEVER KNOW WHAT I WANT. WHAT IF I KNOW ILL WAKE UP EVERYDAY CRYING AND REGRETTING EVERY CHOICE I MADE IN THE PAST. WHAT IF ONE DAY I CANT KEEP SMILING AT OTHERS ANYMORE. WHAT IF I CAN NEVER FEEL IT SINCE I FEEL THE SAME FOR ALL. WHAT IF I NEVER FIND OUT HOW MUCH AND WHO IS THE RIGHT ONE BECAUSE I JUST FUCKING CARE TOO MUCH FOR EVERY PERSON AROUND ME. WHAT IF I NEVER KNOW.. WHAT IF EVERYTHING REMAINS STILL RIGHT NOW. WHAT IF I STOP EATING CHOCOLATES AND CRYING. WHAT IF EVERYONE AROUND ME STARTS BEING THEMSELVES. WHAT IF ONE DAY I CANNOT TAKE THE RUBBISH AND BURST. WHAT IF ONE DAY I CANT SMILE AGAIN. WHAT IF I WAKE UP AND STOP LIKING MYSELF. WHAT IF EVERYDAY I FEEL TEMPTED TO SAY YES TO HIM BUT I HANG ON STRONG SO I WUN HURT THE WOUND AGAIN. WHAT IF TOMORROW I CRY. WHAT IF I CANT HANDLE ALL THATS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE. WHAT IF ... I CANT FEEL SPECIAL ANYMORE.
all i want for christmas this year is to find what and who makes me happy
and to grow emotionally stronger.
I NEED A SIGN. A TOUCH. A FEELING. THAT SAYS.
THATS THE ONE.]
before i say yes. to anything anymore.
cause im not risking hurting ANYONE.
7/11/10, 11:33 PM
WENDYIER! :3 says:
but diff girl diff one lah (;
so key lesson for the day..
IS TO BE YOUR DAMN SELF (;
cause then...
you will not just find some one you can live with
but someone you cant live without (:
7/9/10, 6:17 PM
wow. letting go aint easy you know i walked to every place we have been to today
and guess what ... in the diary of wendy.
i learnt something new today
i know why i let you go
love hurts others.
and i know thats something i cant conform to do.
so i guess till i know what i want..
im gonna be alone..
it sucks that sometimes i have to choose being alone, and hurting another person.
it sucks worse THAT I HATE both.
then it got me thinking why.
and how i can conform to not be alone and yet NOT hurt a person?
its to love for eternity.
or so i think it is.
maybe its a fairytale i live in ..
that ill do anything that keeps people around me happy.
cause im fucking sure thats not what humans do after going through 17.5years.
so that means.
till i find what i know i want.
ill have to be alone.
and to be alone.
i have to be strong.
oh if there is someone up there.....
help me find my centre.
and dun let me be alone.
7/7/10, 10:36 PM
I DUN CARE IF THE WHOLE WORLD WALKS OUT ON YOU COZ IM STAYINGI DUN CARE WHEN YOU ARE DAMN PISSED AND EVERYONE TAKES THE SAFE ROUTE OUT
I AM NOT THE FRIEND WHO WILL RUN AWAY WHEN EVERYONE CHOOSES TO CAUSE ITS NOT THEIR BEES WAX.
IM NEVER LEAVING YOU TO DIE ALONE EVEN WHEN I HAVE NO STRINGS ATTACHED.
I MIGHT BE THE WEIRDEST PERSON ON EARTH BUT...
IM LIKE THAT
AND THATS THE WAY I LIKE IT (:
7/2/10, 10:49 PM
THE ONLY THING THAT YOU'LL FIND THAT CAN HOLD YOU BACK IS THE DOUBT THAT COMES FROM OVER THINKING AND TRYING SO HARD TO MAKE SOMETHING FLAWLESS THAT NO ONE COULD MEASURE UP TO.wheeeee... (;
12:02 AM
anyone.buy me some absolut vodka.
so i can drown myself.
and i can decieve myself...
that i know what i want.
or maybe ill start saying everything i feel...
if i can feel.
wendy is not sad (:
you believe? (:
once again
you know why people get so confused in life?
its cause they do not wish to regret
then again ironically due to the fear of regretting
they make even more mistakes in their lives (TM)
I FEEL AS THOUGH I JUST WOKE UP FROM A DREAM
EVERYTHING SEEMS SO UNREAL
and the most part.
mixed emotions.
7/1/10, 11:17 AM
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefinedI'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
i am unwritten.