Before it ever began Your Kiss Your calls Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
WORDS FALL THROUGH ME AND I CANT SPEAK
AND IM PAINTED BLACK:(
i woke up saying.. smile wendy its a new day! (:
1/28/11, 9:33 PM
if its going to be one big lie please happen soon (: cause i dont think i can take another sad ending.
After this go. im done. i swear (: im gonna stay a oner till like..... the right right right right right right right right right right right right right right right right right right right right RIGHT one :(
arghhhhh world. im exhausted :(
1/27/11, 10:11 PM
My week is coming to an end! (; AWESOME AWESOME! (:
NEXT WEEK WILL BE CNY AND EXAMS AND THEN HOLIDAYS !(: BASICALLY SCHOOL IS AS HECTIC (: im still keeping that smile though! (:
ohoh! (: and here's the thing... basically i was trying out this part time job and i SWEAR the ppl there are damn nice! (: so it got me thinking.
would you rather be in a really competitive environment=unhappy wendy but you make loads of kaching$$$
or..... a simple job= happy wendy and you make just enough to live.......
ahhhhhhh! (: why cant competitive places have all nice people as well! (: awww mannn! (: aaaaaaaany ways (: thank goodness tml is friday! (:
(: sometimes i feel so happily silly that i just feel like doing lil things to entertain the world (:
LOVE IS BLIND, DEAF, EVERYTHING!!! (:
3:47 PM
i got something really special (:
Its when you do the silliest stuff and touch on all the questions in his head Its when you do the stupidest things and yet its the charm. Its when he writes his own story,from the heart. build on that destiny (: I hope it will all end as a good story (: with the wisdom to complete it (:
(:
1/24/11, 11:05 PM
I can slip through your fingers..
just try not to make me liquidify (:
10:31 PM
bet you have no idea how much i care for you (:
<3
1/23/11, 6:41 PM
Went shopping today for CNY stuff(:
and i fell in love with a tanktop that i didnt get in the end (: it had a 5 on it. and my mum ask... what does a 5 represent?
and i thought ..... in the past i could have gotten it(:
thank you for loving me for keeping me strong even when you benefit nothing from it thanks for loving me even with your eyes clothes just by feeling us for listening, forcing out my emotions when im feeling down and for making me smile(: and even though i can publically thank you all the time cause of limitations...
THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME THAT MUCH (: cause i really appreciate it (:
1/22/11, 11:45 PM
Thank you for those who make me smile (: Thank you for those who make me cry. cause you are just qoing to hurt me so i can polish myself through the hard times with the help of people who actually love me to form....
an ultimately stronger polished me (;
I HAD LIKE THE BEST DAY OF LIKE..... THE YEAR (: CAUSE ITS AMAZING WHEN YOU REALISE HOW MANY PEOPLE CARE. AND LOVE YOU. AS A FRIEND. AS MUCH MORE. I CAN VERY MUCH SAY THIS BEATS EVERYTHING EVEN MY 18TH BIRTHDAY .. CAUSE I WAS CRYING BUT NOW IM SMILING (;
THANK YOU (: EVERY FRIEND WHO CARES MEAN THE WORLD TO ME (: AND IMPORTANTLY THEN THERE IS YOU RONY (: thank you (:
11:32 PM
WILL YOU ALWAYS BE THERE? (; ALWAYS? WILL YOU WANT TO HEAR EVERY LITTLE THING ON MY COMPLICATED MIND BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME? WILL YOU CARE THAT MUCH ?
I DO (:
1/21/11, 10:21 PM
Nobody can see the hurt feel the hurt cause its inside. i wont show it.. :(
no i wont cry and even if i do you wont see it. :(
BASICALLY IM A LAVA CAKE. THE BEST PARTS ARE WHEN YOU GET TO KNOW ME. BUT I MAY LOOK TOUGH AND STRONG ON THE OUTSIDE.. SOMEHOW EVERYTIME YOU DONT SEE THE TEARS UNLESS YOU CUT ME OPEN ... IT HURTS REALLY.
and the worst part.. i cant talk about it.
1/19/11, 9:50 PM
Hello Space that i can talk about my emotions and not be judged! (:
It Hurts when everything falls to pieces. When you see people come and go. And how will WENDY overcome this ordeal or everyday drama?
not think about it..... i just hope that is not much of running away but being smart about it (:
and you know what hurts the most? its to be so close and yet knowing... you can never please EVERYONE :( and how everyone can be disliked by someone or even the nicest person in the world can annoy someone else. imagine... a person trying to be nice, picking up litter along the way-> yet blocking the busy people walking behind... they'll get annoyed. A person Smiling at the bus uncle and wishing them a good day.. can annoy the other passengers who would rather that brief few seconds spent on the uncle beating the next red traffic light. (:
so i keep telling myself... i can never make everyone happy (: my mummy always tell me that(: but every single time i realise i cant... it just makes me wanna cry ..
will you feel that too?? It hurts.
1/18/11, 10:15 PM
"Nothing that’s worthwhile is ever easy. Remember that." — Nicholas Sparks
1/17/11, 10:13 PM
And it got me thinking.. i really want this to last.. :(
im so scared that i hardly thinking of my lava cake anymore! (: shall eat it soon! (; heehee! (:
schools been dramatic and strange if you would ask me! (: and hell yeah i miss my sec school so much (: haha! 11.1.11 was awesome (: and you know im trying my ultimate best to tell my silly brain to stop thinking and start trusting everything (:
oh and recently i thought about my dearest sister (; i always thought i wanted her so my brother will stop annoying me when i was a lil child... but honestly.. i know why i love my family sooooooo effing much. NO MATTER WHAT. because they are people who I CAN LET MYSELF LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY (: thats pretty powerful (:
1/9/11, 8:51 PM
This is it? (: whats this story going to be? how will it end? will you be with me?
will we be good? :(
1/2/11, 11:08 PM
I KNOW ONE DAY SOMEHOW I MIGHT GET HURT. AGAIN. I KNOW I MIGHT HAVE THOSE LONG ENDLESS NIGHTS OF ME AND MYSELF NEVER BEING ABLE TO GET DRUNK. I KNOW YOU MIGHT DISAPPOINT ME IN TIME. I KNOW ONE DAY SOMEHOW PEOPLE I LOVE MIGHT HURT ME AND I MIGHT HURT THEM. I KNOW THINGS HAPPEN (: I HAVE ALWAYS TRIED PLANNING.. THINKING HARD .. REALLL HARD BEFORE HAND TO PREVENT HURT TO ANYONE OR MYSELF. PLANNING NEVER HELPED MUCH..
BUT I ALSO PRETTY MUCH WANT TO KNOW ILL BE OKAY. AT THE VERY END (; THAT ILL SMILE KNOWING I HAVE NO REGRETS. THAT I ONCE BELIEVED. THAT I CAN SMILE WHEN OTHERS EXPECT ME TO CRY. AND MORE IMPORTANTLY, MAKE PEOPLE SMILE WITH ME (:
SO THATS PRETTY MUCH MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION. (:
this deep thoughts are strange results of romantic films! (: and yes im telling you.......... love is the weirdest thing in the world. WORLD (: