wendy's

2012-01-30T21:50:00.002+08:00

Do you believe in fate?

What exactly are we all fighting so hard for?

I woke up realizing that the certainty i am looking for is probably not meant to be found.

Then i knew i had to live an oxymoron.

Something Different

Something whole- =)

2012-01-15T12:55:00.002+08:00

I HAVE CHANGED MY PHONE ! =)

Samsung Galaxy S2!!!!!!!(:

<33333333333333 lastttt long Samsungggggg!!!!!(:

2012-01-06T09:32:00.002+08:00

14 days =)

You are in Europe

I love you

but i think i have hit a level..

its not deep .. but thats coz you pushed it up =(

Basically

I have hit a level where i can survive if you leave me now

took me 14 days for massive friend and mummy support =)

a tinge of luck and probably really someone UP there looking out for me

If one day something bad happens

PLEASE wendy. Be strong (:

Its probably not gonna be soon and you might fall deep in love again.

So then.

Be strong . Please.

2012-01-03T17:31:00.008+08:00

CRIED AND DRANK...2010-2011(:

Never felt better so gave up drinking after 3 short attempts

2012...

Recently Ive been waiting for my break

everyone wanted an amazing start to the year..

I didn't..

I didn't have time to wish.. things just happened.

Some cleared up .. others didn't .

then.. i had friends who reminded me who i was.

2012. There are actually people asking me how i was.

and genuine-ly wanting to help =)

Its a bad start.. but then it means it will just get better ...

2011-12-30T00:26:00.001+08:00

FUCK,

I LOVED YOU OKAY

YOU MEANT EVERYTHING TO ME

THANKS ALOT.

thanks for hurting me

unintentionally (:

best end to the year?

i have 2 more days to make it right(; and im gna live it with my family and friends.

PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY GIVE A FUCK AND DO NOT FUCKING FUCK FUCKS BEHIND.

IM DONE.

this is an angry post and i have no idea how im gna wake up to feel

im sorry =(

2011-12-15T23:49:00.002+08:00

12AM! (: 16 DECEMBER WHOO! (:

HAPPY 22RD BIRTHDAY MY LOVE! (;

A series of events packaged together just like the gifts (: on the 17th dec! (:

Jamming. Bowling. Dinner. Movie. Walk. Surprises! (:

Darling (: know on this special day that i really love you...

I don't know what the road is like for us..

honestly often i feel like giving up because its so hard for me to change to something that fits to your beliefs.. BUT NOOOOOO! (:

Just know that our love keeps me strong..

And im thankful to this day because its when something so important to me took its life form! (: haha(: sounds so cute but yeah(:

Ill Sing, A melody and hope to god you're listening,

Sleeping softly while i sing

and ill be your memory

Your lullaby for all the time..

Hoping that my voice could get it right.

Thanks for teaching me unconditional love

Cause i just cant help loving you more each time even without anything in return (:

From the depths of my heart.

Its you, me against the world baby (:

We do this and come out strong okay? (:

2011-12-11T16:12:00.003+08:00

I had a great feeling today(:

Girls i need you to know that its okay to feel afraid

its okay to fear losing something EVERYOTHERGIRL does.

You just got to know each second that you are special

AND REGARDLESS IF THE PERSON YOU GAVE ALL YOUR FAITH TO DOESNT FEEL THAT WAY

you really ought to wake up from your fairy tale

AND INSTEAD OF BLAMING IT ON STUPIDITY

REALISE IT MIGHT JUST BE A KEY FOR SOMEONE ELSE TO OPEN YOUR HEART ONCE MORE.

you cant be afraid.

cause in the end..

those emotions never do help

2011-12-03T11:40:00.002+08:00

There are many hot people in the world

And there are many that can sing, dance, who are talented..

But i doubt anyone can care as much for you as i do(:

I know what i want in life.

This is not something i can tell you(:

coz there is no point in you becoming something i WANT.

coz what i want is to find that special something in YOU (:

You get one shot in life.. But many potential partners to choose from

I chose you(:

Every girl is unique.

I know how many guys think they can change each one and get something better.

but to every OTHER guy.

Your special girl for this moment might be what is BETTER.

and if you don't treasure that..

It goes away (:

2011-11-27T13:29:00.003+08:00

There are many pretty people in this world.

then ill dig to find the pretty hearts <3
AND I REUSE PICTURES THAT ARE PRETTY! (;

2011-11-26T21:44:00.001+08:00

Wanna grow old with you
Slowly , Step by Step (:
Honey............

its US.
Im gonna give it my all (:

2011-11-25T18:36:00.003+08:00

YAYYYY! (: HELLO WORLD !(;
IM HAPPY TODAY COZ I HAVE A REALLY SWEET MOTHER (;
AND I AM HAPPY COZ MY A LEVEL FRIENDS ARE HAPPY! (;
AND THEN ALSO COOZZZZZ

i found an IPHONE 4 COVERRRRRRR! (:
AND I SEARCHED 5 NEIGHBORHOODS FOR IT (;
BASICALLY EVEN THOUGH ITS A WHOOPING CLOSE TO $45 GIFT, WHICH IS SUPER EX FOR AN IPHONE COVER.........
I THINK HE WILL LIKE IT! (;
okay or thats what all girls say when they get something for someone(:
hahahhaha! (;
EFFORT OKAY! (;
now back to work !(:

2011-11-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

I just have to trust right?
There is no point worrying, or crying over something that you think might happen when it hasn't (:
It could have probably been different.
But i love you so much..
and its too hard to even try to let go.
I hate all these times.
HATE IT.

she says you are being a jerk
that i am compromising too much.
AND . I . CANT . HELP . BUT . THINK :(

2011-11-17T09:37:00.002+08:00

Aww man did my nails like last wednesday and the tip started screwing up sooooooo i did this!!! (:

It was initially horrible okay! (: like i painted it white and i was walking around the whole day feeling like i had correction tape all over! (;
Now its silver and i think its 926598734 times better! (:

Okay so i have been searching for ages for all the surprises for my love and theeeeeennnn after searching 4 malls,
he saw something he like at a PASA MALAM
OMGGGGGGGG HAHAHAHA *FAINTS (;
and then i had to force him not to buy

OH WELL I HAVE OTHER SURPRISES ANYWAY! (:
*POUTS (;

2011-11-16T23:54:00.002+08:00

Arguments cant be prevented
everyone is brought up differently with different beliefs and understanding
and Arguments are amazing in bringing people closer together to compromise and to put each other in the shoes of the other and increasing in mutual understanding depanding on what we do with the arguments(:

although it hasnt happened if one day it does..
i just hope we face it together(:

2011-11-14T10:57:00.003+08:00

Goodness i feel like ...... oh shucks
i have been searching for iphone 4 covers like the above or snoopy ones for some1
and i cant find a SINGLE one that i can buy.
When i do .. its out of stock =(
or stained.

IVE GOT 1 MORE MONTH TO SEARCH! (:
help everyone !(:
if you see anything nice let me know !(:

2011-11-13T23:10:00.003+08:00

Its not that i dont mind
I just love you to much to tell you

I just don't get how couples can deal with jealousy (;
its too complicated

2011-11-11T08:01:00.002+08:00

With pins and needles piercing through the warm walls of personality

then again i love it so (:

Cover up those eyes of mine
Till i feel i am near the light
please don't fight these hands
Wrapped around me (:

2011-11-04T18:49:00.001+08:00

there must be a reason for the lack of believe
the lack of hope
and the presence of uncertainty

but we keep striving and moving forward
to see whats in store for us
and pray for something different(:

2011-11-03T22:07:00.001+08:00

The thing is i never want to hear those flowery words that boys pick from magazines and cliche FB pictures,
sure they are lovely and they do help to warm the heart ...

but what i love more than anything is to here genuine words coming from your heart
be it accompanied by shyness or a stutter......
That is what means the most about me...

not the daily roses
but the end love and growing old together, and taking care of each other (:

2011-10-27T22:40:00.001+08:00

Capricorns born on January 7 have a sensitive, vulnerable quality that endears them to others. They have a strong spiritual nature as well as a social conscience. They are likely to experience a conflict between inner-life needs and external responsibilities. This has the potential to create a powerful dichotomy, requiring soul-searching and introspection.

Friends and Lovers

January 7 people need the emotional security of a large circle of friends. They inspire feelings of emotional and spiritual closeness, which bring wonderful and interesting people into their life. Love is a magical event to them. They have an almost impossibly idealistic view of romance and are often hurt by insensitive or fickle lovers.

Children and Family

These dreamy, introspective people are big on fantasy and may have dealt with difficulties in their childhood by tuning in to their imagination. They make nurturing and loving parents and can bring out the creative aspects of a child's nature. They are quick to encourage a love of imagination and fantasy.

Health

If anything is going wrong in their lives, January 7 people are likely to have trouble getting a good night's sleep. They have sensitive body chemistry, which reacts negatively to artificial depressants and stimulants. Since they often suffer from indigestion, they should drink fresh melon juice in season to combat nausea.

Career and Finances

January 7 natives are interested in expressing their inner thoughts and feelings, though they may not have sufficient mettle to withstand a career in the performing or creative arts where their most deeply held and sensitive emotions are open to criticism. They are not interested in making a great deal of money and are people-oriented, issue-concerned individuals.

Dreams and Goals

People born today are likely to get involved with New Age or occult studies to probe the mysteries of the world beyond their sight. They may have difficulty motivating themselves to attain a material goal, yet if they can find spiritual significance in it, they may be able to draw some relevance from the experience.

http://tlc.howstuffworks.com/

HOROSCOPES.
HAHAHA WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE SOMETIMES(:

2011-10-24T21:57:00.003+08:00

I wanna retreat to the fairytale world
where there is no fear, hate or sadness
where's the world that doesnt care?
MAYBE I SHOULD MEET YOU THERE (:

2011-10-17T22:00:00.002+08:00

I LOVE SCHOOL HOLIDAYS (:

and i have to say the only downside is that i have time to think so thinking about uncertainties and wasting time on unanswerable questions will be inevitable :(

A friend of mine said one day you'll meet Mr Perfect,
That its okay to give up all till you meet him..
then i said "no one's perfect"
and she said... to you he will be.. and you'll know..

Dear blog readers..
Im fucking scared...
But ill keep pressing on (:

2011-10-06T10:38:00.002+08:00

October 3, 2011
A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was "This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?"

The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way:

"Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness.
They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns. They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia.
They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds. They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defend and admires.

Mermaids do not exist.

But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish?
They would have no sex life and could not bear children.
Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad.
And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?

Without a doubt, I'd rather be a whale.

At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends.

GOT THIS ON FB YEAH! (:
ITS NICEEEE AND TRUE!

2011-09-23T19:12:00.001+08:00

Every person has a personal dream of life and it is completely different from anyone else's dream. In a relationship we can pretend to be the same, but there just isn't any way that can happen. There are two dreamers with two dreams. Everyone is going to dream their own way. That is why we need to accept the differences that exist between each other; we need to respect each other's dreams.

<3

2011-09-20T14:05:00.000+08:00

MISS ALL THE MEMORIES (:
ALL THE NICE PEOPLE I MET,
if only i can keep it all in a box and live it anytime i want to again (;

2011-09-07T19:48:00.003+08:00

Memories cant be Rewritten
Would you change yourself for something else you never could believe in?

2011-08-30T19:01:00.001+08:00

I realised i have sooooo many HAPPY smiling teeth showing pictures sooooo
here's me studying! (:

NOT (:
okokay now ill study (:

2011-08-25T19:05:00.003+08:00

STUDY WEEK!!! (:
ACCOUNTING IS ON THE LIST AND I HAVE TO SAY ITS GOING NOT SO GOOD WITH STILL SOOOOO MANY QUESTIONS LEFT IN MY HEAD (:

One day at a time! (:
AND SOON HOLIDAYS WOULD BE NEAR! (:
im feeling a tad adventurous this holiday sooooooooooo

plaaaaaaaaans! (:

okay now its gna get a lil sweet cause i just read my friend's online letter to her bf (: so you can skip it if you are not feeling loveeey! (:

and i know its not right to place your hopes on people but I REALLY DO
coz many a times seeing their love last makes me feel hopeful that there is TRUE love regardless of the definations.
i will be let down... couples breakup.. the worse things happen, and catch everyone by surprise and i feel so helpless trying to revive their soul knowing their aching hearts require more than time to heal and at the same time trust myself that something like that would not happen..
cause it would.

But then again today i read the post written by my friend and seriously,
SO WHAT IF YOU HAVE NOT FOUND THE ONE? YEAH ITS TOUGH, YEAH THE MOVING ON SHIT IS SOOOOOOO MUCH HARDER THAN SIMPLY TYPING A FEW WORDS LIKE THIS......
BUT NOTHING AWESOME IS EVERY EASY TO GET, ITS GONNA BE TOUGH BUT IT WILL BE WORTHWHILE.. AND SEEING MY FRIENDS SO HAPPY JUST REMINDS ME THAT THERE IS HOPE..
and that only makes me love everything just a lil more (:

My dear blog readers.. Dont ever give up on yourself,
Cause you deserve much more then tears of sorrow and regret, cry. pick yourself up and live it DAY by DAY and things should get better (:
cause i lay my hope on you (:

Regardless of the definition, the trek for real love remains the same, a journey towards self-completion.

2011-08-24T10:42:00.001+08:00

If that’s the best that I could be?
Than I’d be another memory
Can I be the only hope for you?
Because you’re the only hope for me
And if we can find where we belong,
We’ll have to make it on our own.
Face all the burn and take it out
Because the only hope for me is you
Alone

2011-08-23T11:33:00.002+08:00

I am absolutely sure if every time someone gives up when they are afraid
NO one will be married.
There will not be lil kids who sooner or later grow up to worry and find their definition of life and love.
There will not be the long endless nights together with tears that are miles wide
There will not be the forsaken sense of security
There will not be that huge a plunge of emotions (:

but there and then it carries away a ton of joy, the exhilaration of emotions and best of it all, the thought of at 89, looking back at the children and grandchildren, at all the deep wrinkles and rough hands knowing we were there and we made a miracle surviving this journey TOGETHER as you hold my hand in yours.

Now thats living life to the fullest (:

2011-08-22T21:32:00.000+08:00

When you meet that certain someone,
You've been searchin hard to find......
It's a new love full of passion,
That can sometimes make you blind.
I don't mind being swept away,
If I know right from the start.......
So before we go much further girl,
Can I trust you with my heart?

In the time we've spent together,
I have learned to trust in you.
So many things you given....
Before I even asked you to.
But reality and romance,
Are sometimes far apart.
So, what I really need to know is......
Can I trust you with my heart?

Can I cast my cares upon you?
Can you stand the heavy load?
Can I count on you to walk me, down that long and winding road?
If you promise me these simple things, I can gurantee.....
You can always count on me.

2011-08-18T11:14:00.002+08:00

take away my saddness
ease away my troubles thats what you do (:

N
If i said the world was ours to take
would you hold my hand and let our worries flow away
Life's gonna get tough but then
we can get tougher by the day

because have i told you lately how much i love you (:

2011-08-16T19:23:00.003+08:00

A walk to remember..

argh! (: falling sickkkkkkkk! (;
awwww=(

2011-08-11T20:58:00.000+08:00

let it be right.. please =)

2011-08-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

MY SIBLINGS
COMPLETES (:

2011-08-09T18:37:00.001+08:00

I HATE IT.
Given a Choice: Would you rather be Sadly Lonely or Happily Afraid?

i want you but if wanting you means hurting others..
then maybe i should just remain as it is..
My brother said im weak
fucking indeed.

2011-08-06T15:12:00.002+08:00

Dear Claire, "What" and "If" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? I don't know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like - love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for but I'd like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I will have the courage to seize it. And, Claire, if you didn't, I hope one day that you will. All my love, Juliet

2011-08-06T15:05:00.001+08:00

"For you see, each day I love you more
Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow."

Love like you've never been hurt before (:
Do you believe ?

2011-08-04T14:37:00.002+08:00

Its something unpredictable but in the end its right
I hope you had the time of your life..

What if you knew something would be IT
If you are so sure of something and yet you are so afraid it will be gone someday
If you start the hellos.. is it going to be one step to goodbye
How can you love if you cant trust enough to let it go free
Everyone says they understand but there is no way they can feel the inner struggle
To either be happily lonely if i say no or to be happily afraid once its yes
and why are there so many questions that for once i have no answers to fit...

Its a gamble
and if i place a bet
I want to place it all on one person
And it would be worth (:
wont it?

2011-07-31T22:21:00.003+08:00

I get ultimate mixed feelings when i read love poems

yes and no

come and go

i want to feel
but im too afraid to let go
so much joy and then so much tears...
when you can sympathize then empathize with others
you feel it.. but not live it entirely
you feel it enough to know how much it can hurt
and just like that

a little girl runs away..
build up a wall to prevent the hurt from ever coming as near
lonely but safe
courage

Can i one day love enough
to be shunned from hurt
Can i trust enough
that the days will be worth

fix you.

2011-07-31T19:25:00.004+08:00

Lord im doing all i can
to be a better man
I cant tell who is who's not
will i feel something other then how things are odd
girls around the world who have no DAMN idea unite

cmon whoever's up there
shine me a light =(

what if i lose what i have now?
what if i change my mind?
what if quarrels start?
what ifs...

Im always searching for answers, and never making any for myself =(
and i cant change it even if i want to =( cause im so scared

2011-07-30T17:09:00.000+08:00

will that be okay with you wendy?

2011-07-27T12:07:00.002+08:00

My brother taught me to be oblivious

then i realised its not a skill best to have
its a skill needed to survive

hurt me once and back for more
douche

2011-07-27T10:06:00.005+08:00

I miss melbourne
I miss a lot of stuff

and when i woke up today i missed you (:
So near yet so far =(
sometimes the only obstacle's gna be the one keeping you apart
just know i always loved you
imperfectly perfect <3

2011-07-24T23:32:00.002+08:00

Ill never forget the way you look at me
Ill never let the memories of us flow away with the wind
Ill never forget how you use to hold me
Ill never let the sun dampen all that means
Ill never feel the same feeling with anyone you engraved in me

cause thats what i wanna find one day
and ill know i wanna grow old with you (:

all it takes is two to complete (:
thats why its that hard

2011-07-23T14:57:00.003+08:00

Love is an endless road,
It gets really tiring
when you see something that just might be IT and then POP,
there goes the possibility of a fairytale

Life is never fair sometimes and often i doubt love is as well
those that care so much loses and those with a pinch of lunch pull everything off.
Whoever you are, ill wait for you
I wont let you down

Loneliness
but that doesnt make the world all unfair
Vulnerable
but that doesnt mean im weak enough to accept just anyone

TIME.
Don't fool me too long =(

2011-07-12T11:44:00.001+08:00

I HAVE CHANGED SO MUCH OVER THE YEARS (:

THATS WHAT YOU SEE (: BUT I PROMISE YOU
I AM STILL WHO I WAS on the inside (:

SILVERSTEIN

YES YES YESSSS TODAAAAAAY! (;

2011-07-11T09:41:00.000+08:00

I will promise myself I won’t care
Distracting myself from your stare
And I’ve seen this mistake once before
With your games I will never fall for

I’ve hung up my guns
I won’t kill again

But I’m tired of lying
Tired of fighting you
And it's not gonna change

You asked for my heart
You know that I’m down
But not the way you lie to me
And tear it all apart
And beg for me to stay

I’ve sailed off to sea
I’m not coming back

But I’m tired of the lying
Tired of fighting you
And it's not gonna change

Counting down
Make that sound
And you know it makes no sense
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/s/silverstein/discovering_the_waterfront.html ]
Counting down
Till you mess around
And I know you can’t ever change
When I’m trembling
Thrown overboard
When I’m ready to relive the past

Counting down
Make that sound
Break the silence

Pretend it's not forever
Ill pull myself together
Ill say that I'll forget her
Ill breathe
And I'll say she never hurt me
And look at it as learning
And laugh about the good and the bad
Because I will live forever
We don’t belong together
I know I'll feel better
One day when I can make it through

I won’t forget you
I won’t forget you
I’m not gonna let you win
I’m not gonna

But I’m tired of lying
Tired of fighting you
And it's not gonna change

I won’t forget you
(Counting down)
I’m not gonna let you win
(Counting down)
I’m tired of the lying
Tired of fighting you
And it's not gonna change

JUST PAST YOUR LIPS THERES MORE ANGER THEN LAUGHTER

silverstein..... TOMORROW (:

2011-07-04T21:53:00.002+08:00

Recently i closed a chapter in my life

this blog post is for you Mark (;

He was a friend like no other.
and he taught me a lot. Opened my eyes to a lot of things that i couldnt be realistic about.
And i learnt a lot. Thats what i took away with all the nice memories (:

I know it hurts to end it abruptly but im sorry i cant lead it on that way.
as hurtful as it may be ..
its not okay but we will be alright.

YES WHEN I SEE YOU ILL SAY HI (:
We aint strangers (:
I never regretted meeting you .
and i hope you are safe and will find your happiness one day my dear friend.

blessing you from afar.

2011-07-04T13:43:00.002+08:00

Life is all about perception (:

im sooooooo tired but its a good tired (:
lonely, its not okay but ill be alright(:
how much more boring can this post get??! (: haha! currently doing a whole load of projects and i think this sem has been the bestsem soooooooo far! (; even if it is very tiring and stressful (;

people make up my experiences (:

2011-06-20T07:58:00.000+08:00

i hate it when my friends get upset. like super sad extremes:(

she doesnt deserve this.
u either cling on or let go:(
she is facing too much pain.
its unfair. she loved u so much..
still do.

be a man.

i hope things turn out fine:(

2011-06-18T10:13:00.000+08:00

loneliness aint ever bliss

school will be starting in a week(: and then its studyyy again!(: and god i pretty much miss mentoring:( the kids..
sometimes i feel i give up too much.. and that im a failure.. but i just cant keep thinking that way.. coz everytime i think abt that i cant handle it(:

failure. is the start of success
or is it?:(

2011-06-17T19:53:00.000+08:00

if u feel the pain
you must push it away(:

waiting outside the lines

2011-06-10T12:12:00.002+08:00

AUSSIE! (: be back on the 16th! (:

wheeeeeee! (; I dont know is it like a happy yayyyy but im pretty excited for this (:
and and and

i have yet packed much (:
6 hours to me + airport (:

2011-06-08T23:45:00.002+08:00

im sorry that i hurt you =(

sleep well

2011-06-05T11:37:00.004+08:00

3 things. Same problem (:

PEOPLE DO NOT APPRECIATE ENOUGH.

1. When someone encourages you... you should not think its what they should do (: cause it aint.

2. Do upon others what you want others to do upon you.

3. I do not have to be there for you. And despite all that you try to take advantage further.

But here is the thing (:
even the blind can feel genuinely.
and one day they will be able to see (:

I never believed in being unkind in any case but i suddenly feel why the world does this to one another.
and this time as usual im the victim. AGAIN.
but as the dead can see one day.
then i wonder if im changing for the better or
just becoming like everyone else..

and if the wendy can still stay kind. caring. TO ALL.
stupid.

2011-06-04T12:26:00.001+08:00

Its been too long

CMON ACCOUNTING AND SSM PROFF TEST! (:

2011-05-07T09:20:00.005+08:00

Mother's day is coming!!! (:

Another amazing year seeing my mother as strong as ever.
I think its amazing how we are given this.. MOTHER thingy.
Like.. sure my mum nags and everything but its those times you feel your world is crashing down
and that you have nothing left to hold on that you suddenly realise...
how those family members who you might have just felt irritated yet so full of emotional love towards...
turn out to be so special in your life.

BELOW IS MUCH COMPLAINING (:
IM WARNING YOU ! (: YOU CAN JUST SKIP ALL THE WAY TO THE BOTTOM(:

Recently i realised how stressed i am.
With all the uncertainty in my life running through days where loads of thoughts of THINGS I MUST DO runs though my head such that even my dear brown organiser cannot help me.
having a strenuous killer subject that my coursemates are probably complaining and cursing online now.. SERIOUSLY. AND GUYS SAID NS WAS TOUGH.
but yeahhh ... carrying bricks on your shoulders, terrorizing screams over the slightest mistakes SLIGHTEST (: like placing the spoon 0.5cm too close to the table to the ATTIRE CHECKS (:
and i honestly still convinced myself that its fun(: haha !(;
the Trama comes when you think of the grades you are gonna get. ITS A WHOLE LOAD OF INFO TO MEMORISE. I MEAN I TOOK HISTORY AND THIS IS WAAAAAAY WORSE AND MUCH MORE INFO THAN MEMORIZING FROM A HISTORY TEXTBOOK(:
thats just 1 out of the 7 subjects for us right now.
i mean... its nothing like a walk in the park(:
For once its not "hey wendy you must get an A" rather its a "shit i wanna effing pass this shit".
yeah and the last time that occurred in poly it was for Geography and i forgive myself for scrapping through with a D (: haha !(;
so basically now my dad's like. WHY THE HELL YOU CHOSE POLY?! SO MUCH FOR THINKING U CANT COPE THIS IS LIKE. WORSE.

then again its only for 6 months *cries*
and im sure ill come out a way stronger person.
and i have to say working under pressure is reeeeeeeally scary and in the long term might cause severe hair loss but its actually really EFFECTIVE (:

yeah so basically life is as USUAL. a focking rollercoaster.
and im still struggling to enjoy the ride(:
but guess what.
i can still think of reasons to smile.
and thats
what
matters
to
me
the
most.

(: keep smiling world(: The view on top of the mountain is worth the climb (:

2011-04-16T20:20:00.002+08:00

THIS TRIP HAS BEEN LIKE A ROLLER COASTER.
THE HIGHEST OF HIGH ( NOT MUCH ) AND THE LOWEST OF LOW.

and it just keeps coming.

2011-04-10T16:56:00.002+08:00

BEFORE I LEAVE FOR DEAR AUSSIE...

i want to update one last time..
you know how sometimes you walk on the road and you see things that help you to reflect..
and to think of the individual stories behind everything? (: yeahh...

how every individual has their own stories and how they come out of it(:

well thats the awesome part.
and i hope everyone is having a blast (:
if you are single. so am i so stay happy single! (: till you find the awesome one! (:
if you are having family stuff. so am i ! (: but we'll come out stronger if we have the courage.
if you are sad of life. sometimes i feel it too. but thats the best part (:

TOUGH TIMES DONT LAST.
TOUGH PEOPLE DO(:

AND DEAR FAMILY AND FRIENDS.....
YOU MAKE ME TOUGH.
YOU MAKE ME LIVE AND LOVE.

bon voyage (:

2011-04-07T10:00:00.004+08:00

YAYYY HAPPY 3RD MONTH OR BEING 18

BASICALLY
I HAVE THIS NOISY CONSTRUCTION WAKING ME UP EVERYDAY AT 8AM OR SOOOOOOOOO(;
MOSQUITOS FORCING ME TO GET A

MOSQUITO STRAAAAP! (;

but besides that all..
im actually pretty happy (;
well mostly but contention is a bliss(;
further moreeeeee ill be in AUSSIE in 3 days! (:
and till date i haven found all the things i wanna explore yet =(
crap sticks.
not forgetting a cruise bring the hols to a close end(:

ahhh.........
holidays(:

OOOOOOOOO AWESOME CHOCOLATE CRAZE! (:

2011-03-28T21:53:00.002+08:00

I love you
and dear you would never know
i love how when you smile i cant help thinking i want to make it last
i love how we joke around and how i can always make you laugh
i love how you would tell me about other girls and deep down i wait till you find the one
i love how my eyes feel like they sparkle with you around

i love how when you sit by me i just want you close
i love knowing maybe one day my love can be showed
i love knowing you are just by my side
believing someday you might hold me all so tight

and thats just a pinch of the salt to this wonderful dish
the silent love i can never unleash
its hard to keep it all in
but being a loner in love is much better then letting myself hurt too deep.

2011-03-25T23:17:00.003+08:00

D. yes i know its you.

but you probably dun think so(:
its okay (:
its not that bad being a guardian angel(:

life as you know it..
aint all candi-fied (:
ILY.

2011-03-24T19:22:00.002+08:00

i should be affected but i am (:

school hols are awesome with meeting of nice people and hanging out with people i love and care (:
its daddy's birthday today (:

as usual a celebration and stuff and gosh i already started planning mummy's bday! (;

and this is my favourite PART~!:
MUMMY.. EVERYONE HAS A REASON TO LIVE WELL YOU ARE MINE
AND I THINK I HAVE FOUND YOURS AND I DOUBT YOU'LL DENY
THATS US, CAUSE WITHOUT YOU WE'LL ALL FALL APART
WITH EACH ENDEARING SMILE COMING RIGHT FROM YOUR HEART (:

2011-03-22T19:06:00.001+08:00

LIVE LOVE PRAY (:

whoo what have i been doing these days?? (:
running around! (:
literally! (:
and im totally enjoying the holidays! (;
well most of it..

oh and im hooked on how i met your mother and the amazing race (:
huge change frm my endless fetish with cartoons! (:

peace

2011-03-22T18:55:00.001+08:00

dont be sad (;
one day the dots will join and form
and you'll be proud of yourself.
and find someone who's proud with you too(:

GOSH I NEED A HUG (:

2011-03-20T23:11:00.001+08:00

HEY MY DEAR BLOG ILL UPDATE YOU SOON! (;

MY HOLS ARE TURNING AWESOME! (;
ITS BEEN LIKE A ROLLER COASTER ! (:
5 DAYS OF CRYING AND THE REST OF KNOWING MY REASON TO SMILE.

BY THE WAY LOVE YOUR FAMILY (:
THEY WILL STAND BY YOU WHEN THE WORLD LEAVES(:

2011-03-13T12:48:00.002+08:00

BOTANIC GARDENS
MACRICHIE R
AND WOODLANDS(;

I WENT AROUND SINGAPORE RECENTLY AND IT WAS AWESOME! (;
LIKE A POWERUP KINDA THING(:
ALONE TRAVELLING SLOWLY AND QUIETLY ENJOYING EVERY SECOND(;
HAHA! (:
AND I WAS MISTAKENLY LABELLED A TAIWAN TOURIST! (:

LEGEND-ARY(:

2011-03-13T12:22:00.001+08:00

ADVENTUREEEEEEE!:D

MAN HOLS ARE AWESOME(:

2011-03-07T20:44:00.003+08:00

Come let me tell you about Nicholas Sparks books..

there are only two extreme endings.

he dies or they both live happily ever after.

The latest one i read was really happy (:
and i know somehow one day ill see my rainbow.
omgggg its been only 1 month since ive felt this way.
still.
acceptance of reality and belief for happiness (:

2011-03-07T20:36:00.002+08:00

I hate feeling lonely
cause then you feel vulnerable
then you start missing someone
But you know those are figments of imaginations that will never
piece your current reality.

I know how it feels like
waiting outside the lines.
maybe ill live one day (:

when that happens ill do that right.

2011-03-06T15:54:00.001+08:00

This is how i have been spending my hols! (:

ice skating with awesome friends,
falling down,
working,
omgggggggggggggggggggggggggggg ++++++++++++++++++++++++++ loads (;

thank god for holidays (;

2011-03-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

I HAD THE AWESOMEST DAY EVER.

CAUSE I SAW THE AWESOMEST PPL.
AND I FEEL AWESOME.
JUST AWESOME.

EVEN MY AWFUL VODKA ORANGE TASTED AWESOME (:

2011-03-04T21:59:00.003+08:00

i never needed you to work out so you could please everyone
i thought that was for your confidence. so you will be happy.

i never thought i could believe in love again
but then i realised its cause you told me i aint good enough.

Wendy.
you are amazing.
Just the way you are.

Just because one guy thinks you aint
doesnt mean everyone else thinks so too.
Just the way you are darling(:

2011-02-25T22:34:00.001+08:00

blame.

i have been blamed thrice this month that i seriously cant handle.
exams.
wendy focus (;

cmon.
make it through the night...
you'll see the sun.

2011-02-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

After exams.....

i shall keep myself company with AWESOME FRIENDS AND...
MY DEAR SPARKS BOOKS(:

JUST GOT THIS TODAY.
AND IT IS SUPER RELEVANT.... AT LEAST THE SYNOPSIS IS (;
AND ECONS IS TML SOO.... CIAO!

courage is when you lost your way but you find yourself anyway(:

2011-02-21T21:49:00.003+08:00

Times like now i get a lil lonely
but then i fight to be strong(:

cause its okay to be alone(:
that cant be helped.
but being happy can (:

I WANNA BE A TEACHER WHEN I GROW UP (:
I WAS SITTING AT THE STADIUM TODAY ALONE AND I SAW MANY CHILDREN..
SAY 30-40?
EACH WITH THEIR OWN TINY CHARACTERISTICS.
FLIPPING OF THE HAIR OR
LOOKING DOWN AFTER RUNNING A RACE..
EACH OF THEIR OWN.
AND I WANNA WATCH THEM GROW.
HELP THEM(:
INSPIRE.
CAUSE I BELIEVE ITS THE ONLY WAY ILL BE IN AN ENVIRONMENT OF GENUINE CARE.

AND TO ME
THATS THE MOST IMPORTANT(:

2011-02-15T21:36:00.001+08:00

omg so vulnerable. this is not me.
okay.
snap out of it.

now
now
now
...

how bout now?

2011-02-15T21:35:00.001+08:00

STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY
STOP CRYING WENDY

F.

2011-02-15T21:33:00.003+08:00

mummy always told me to be careful (:
mummy will always love me (:

THANKS FRIENDS.
THANKS MUMMY.
THIS TIME. I HAVE TO WIPE OF MY TEARS AND MOVE ON STRONG(:

baby dont talk to me im trying to let go
not loving you is harder than you know.

2011-02-15T19:19:00.008+08:00

wow i didnt know you were such a jerk, and i had to find out that you never really meant what you said.
sure i think a lot. but thats me and someday some one will love that too (:

this was my bus ride after i found out.

so first i felt like crying.
then i felt like punching you.
then i felt like crying cause i blame myself for everything you did wrong.
then i felt like punching myself knowing im being an idiot.
then i felt like crying again feeling like maybe my character did change.
then i did a character analysis like how i do it everytime someone says "you have changed."
then i realised i should not doubt myself... now i dont feel guilty anymore.

maybe still slightly cause i really cared about you
cause i trusted .. till you betrayed it.
and to think i was ......... so damn guilty..
before knowing all this while you were just like .....

and honestly.
i want to cry real badly.
but im going to focus on people who actually do care about me.
and who do not act like jerks because they are perfectly honest with me.

thanks ah.
i really loved you.
thanks a lot.
so dear tears.
please stay inside.
cause i cant bear for you to come out now.
i have a test and a presentation tomorrow and..
i really cant bear for you to slide down now.

JUST KNOW THAT YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I KNOW AND TRY TO KEEP IT IN SO AS TO KNOW COMPLICATE THINGS EVEN THOUGH YOU ALREADY FIND THEM COMPLICATED.
THAT I DIDNT SAY THINGS SO TO KEEP THAT SMILE ON YOUR FACE.
THATS HOW MUCH I CARED.
AND IM NOT SAYING THEM TO YOU EVER..
CAUSE I STILL CARE.

2011-02-14T12:28:00.002+08:00

I don't know where I'm goin
but I sure know where I've been
hanging on the promises in songs of yesterday.
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time
but here I go again, here I go again.

Tho' I keep searching for an answer
I never seem to find what I'm looking for.
Oh Lord, I pray you give me strength to carry on
'cos I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams.

Here I go again on my own
goin' down the only road I've ever known.
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone.
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time.

Just another heart in need of rescue
waiting on love's sweet charity
an' I'm gonna hold on for the rest of my days
'cos I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams.

Here I go again on my own
goin' down the only road I've ever known.
Like a hobo I was born to walk alone.
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time
but here I go again, here I go again,
here I go again, here I go.

An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time.

Here I go again on my own
goin' down the only road I've ever known.
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
'cos I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams.

Here I go again on my own
goin' down the only road I've ever known.
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone.
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time
but here I go again, here I go again,
here I go again, here I go,
here I go again

2011-02-13T22:33:00.003+08:00

Its going to be tough on us.
I know you will read this.
Thank for everything.
Wherever you are i wish you all the best.

Now you must let go.
you must pick yourself up and be strong.
one day you will smile again (:
times have been tough.
and honestly not made you any tougher.
nobody will understand the pain.
but this one year.. live it well.
cause its unwritten pages.
fill them up and make yourself proud.
wendy be strong.
cause Courage is not a man with a gun
Courage is when you are licked before you begin but you begin anyway and you see it through no matter what.

I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try somehow the plan
is always rearranged

It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place
in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away

I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

you gotta cry every once in a while.
you gotta be alone every once in a while.
knowing sometimes its more than i can handle. too much tears too much loneliness.
ill still try. smile and.. march on.
cause there is only hope if i believe.

2011-02-12T19:39:00.000+08:00

i dont know u... :(

do u noe me?

2011-02-12T10:48:00.000+08:00

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

2011-02-10T23:04:00.000+08:00

TYPING N MY PHONE'S KEYPAD RIGHT NAAAAAOW(:
MY COMP HAS SERIOUS ISSUES.. SHALL HEAL IT SOON!(:

TIMES ARE TOUGH
SO I JUST TRY KEEP STRONG
AND KEEP HOLDING ON :D

2011-02-01T22:47:00.004+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE WORLD! (;

I SHOULD GO INTO A MORE POSITIVE NOTE RIGHT? (;

HOWS...... I BELIEVE IN FATE! (;

AND THAT SIGNS WILL SHOW TO LEAD ME TO THE RIGHT SIDES (;

AND THAT TIME WILL DETERMINE MUCH (:

THAT ... THIS CHINESE NEW YEAR IS GONNA BE A GOOD ONE SPENT WITH PEOPLE I LOVE? (;

AND THAT....... MY SEM IS COMING TO AN END (;

MORE POSITIVITY......

MAYBE ILL TRY MEDITATION! (;

2011-02-01T22:44:00.002+08:00

the habit.

Ill let go if i know im not strong enough to handle.

Recently i felt the easier way is to let go.

but i chose to hold on (:

i see the past again (:

I hear the word... Wendyyyyy not again!!!!!!! (:

then i think. nah dun think so much (;

2011-01-29T11:25:00.000+08:00

you know how when someone cares

like sincerely

you can feel it? (;

you just can

2011-01-29T09:09:00.002+08:00

Was this over before

Before it ever began Your Kiss Your calls Your crutch

Like the devils got your hand

WORDS FALL THROUGH ME AND I CANT SPEAK

AND IM PAINTED BLACK:(

i woke up saying.. smile wendy its a new day! (:

2011-01-28T21:33:00.006+08:00

if its going to be one big lie please happen soon (:
cause i dont think i can take another sad ending.

After this go.
im done.
i swear (:
im gonna stay a oner till like..... the right right right right right right right right right right right right right right right right right right right right RIGHT one :(

arghhhhh world.
im exhausted :(

2011-01-27T22:11:00.003+08:00

My week is coming to an end! (;
AWESOME AWESOME! (:

NEXT WEEK WILL BE CNY AND EXAMS AND THEN HOLIDAYS !(:
BASICALLY SCHOOL IS AS HECTIC (:
im still keeping that smile though! (:

ohoh! (:
and here's the thing...
basically i was trying out this part time job and i SWEAR the ppl there are damn nice! (:
so it got me thinking.

would you rather be in a really competitive environment=unhappy wendy but you make loads of kaching$$$

or..... a simple job= happy wendy and you make just enough to live.......

ahhhhhhh! (: why cant competitive places have all nice people as well! (:
awww mannn! (:
aaaaaaaany ways (:
thank goodness tml is friday! (:

(: sometimes i feel so happily silly that i just feel like doing lil things to entertain the world (:

LOVE IS BLIND, DEAF, EVERYTHING!!! (:

2011-01-27T15:47:00.005+08:00

i got something really special (:

Its when you do the silliest stuff and touch on all the questions in his head
Its when you do the stupidest things and yet its the charm.
Its when he writes his own story,from the heart.
build on that destiny (:
I hope it will all end as a good story (:
with the wisdom to complete it (:

(:

2011-01-24T23:05:00.001+08:00

I can slip through your fingers..

just try not to make me liquidify (:

2011-01-24T22:31:00.001+08:00

bet you have no idea how much i care for you (:

<3

2011-01-23T18:41:00.003+08:00

Went shopping today for CNY stuff(:

and i fell in love with a tanktop that i didnt get in the end (:
it had a 5 on it.
and my mum ask... what does a 5 represent?

and i thought ..... in the past i could have gotten it(:

thank you for loving me
for keeping me strong
even when you benefit nothing from it
thanks for loving me even with your eyes clothes just by feeling us
for listening, forcing out my emotions when im feeling down
and for making me smile(:
and even though i can publically thank you all the time cause of limitations...

THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME THAT MUCH (:
cause i really appreciate it (:

2011-01-22T23:45:00.003+08:00

Thank you for those who make me smile (:
Thank you for those who make me cry.
cause you are just qoing to hurt me so i can polish myself through the hard times with the help of people who actually love me to form....

an ultimately
stronger polished me (;

I HAD LIKE THE BEST DAY OF LIKE..... THE YEAR (:
CAUSE ITS AMAZING WHEN YOU REALISE HOW MANY PEOPLE CARE.
AND LOVE YOU.
AS A FRIEND. AS MUCH MORE.
I CAN VERY MUCH SAY THIS BEATS EVERYTHING EVEN MY 18TH BIRTHDAY ..
CAUSE I WAS CRYING
BUT NOW IM SMILING (;

THANK YOU (:
EVERY FRIEND WHO CARES MEAN THE WORLD TO ME (:
AND IMPORTANTLY THEN THERE IS YOU RONY (:
thank you (:

2011-01-22T23:32:00.003+08:00

WILL YOU ALWAYS BE THERE? (;
ALWAYS?
WILL YOU WANT TO HEAR EVERY LITTLE THING ON MY COMPLICATED MIND BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME?
WILL YOU CARE THAT MUCH ?

I DO (:

2011-01-21T22:21:00.002+08:00

Nobody can see the hurt
feel the hurt
cause its inside.
i wont show it..
:(

no i wont cry
and even if i do
you wont see it.
:(

BASICALLY IM A LAVA CAKE.
THE BEST PARTS ARE WHEN YOU GET TO KNOW ME.
BUT I MAY LOOK TOUGH AND STRONG ON THE OUTSIDE..
SOMEHOW EVERYTIME YOU DONT SEE THE TEARS UNLESS YOU CUT ME OPEN ...
IT HURTS REALLY.

and the worst part..
i cant talk about it.

2011-01-19T21:50:00.002+08:00

Hello Space that i can talk about my emotions and not be judged! (:

It Hurts when everything falls to pieces.
When you see people come and go.
And how will WENDY overcome this ordeal or everyday drama?

not think about it.....
i just hope that is not much of running away but being smart about it (:

and you know what hurts the most?
its to be so close and yet knowing... you can never please EVERYONE :(
and how everyone can be disliked by someone or even the nicest person in the world can annoy someone else.
imagine... a person trying to be nice, picking up litter along the way-> yet blocking the busy people walking behind... they'll get annoyed.
A person Smiling at the bus uncle and wishing them a good day.. can annoy the other passengers who would rather that brief few seconds spent on the uncle beating the next red traffic light.
(:

so i keep telling myself... i can never make everyone happy (:
my mummy always tell me that(:
but every single time i realise i cant... it just makes me wanna cry ..

will you feel that too??
It hurts.